I'm Exhausted

I go to class for 8 hours two days a week, the other 5 days i spend 6 hours each at least in the library, and i havent even got to studying for exams. Im tired and already feel defeated. Plus i have the witch tomorrow and have made so many pages to my paper you'll think im writing a novel. Kalms to sleep tonight

umm

so usu when i start a story with umm my bff s-j goes "oh lawd what u do" so to clarify i didnt do nething. BUTTTTTTTTTTT!! We bounced in2 one another n he asked for my number. Outside im like yeh wtvr, but inside its likeaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaahhhhhhhhhhh...


ok now back to normal ppl speak

Im kinda sorta blushing

Compatibility

She n i get along ok but im writing not aabout her byt about her relationship. Since i met her all she could talk about is her bf. He does this he does that. Sometimes it was sickening, sometimes it was adorable, sometimes it was enviable bcuz my own relationship at that time was mess. She answered the phone hey bb and u cud totally tell when he saw her he lit up. So he's for the sake of anonymity, a bricklayer and she's a msc student. And i had my doubts, eeeeeeeeeh really, wud it work? Convos revolved around the same issue. I stayed out of it because who am I to speak to someone about what makes them happy. Fastforward to this semester, they're done. Why? Because he doesnt understand how stressful it is to do both a msc and a relationship and has been demanding the same level of attention b4 she began the degree. So i hear my aunt in my head (who is single btw) saying u can only be fulfilled in a relationship if you and ur pathner are equally yolked. On the same playing field. Have the same level of ambitions. And i wonder if it is true. Could a ceo happily and etenrally marry a garbage man? Or is it just a matter of pride that gets in the way. *KANYE SHRUG*

My weakness

I think i sympathize wayyyyy too much with the disadvantaged, the underprivileged and the unhappy. Which is weird cuz im really mean. Mean in the sense of i have verbal vomit, i say whats on my mind waaaaaaaaaay more than I should and sometimes, most times i dont regret it cuz its the  truth. But when i look at crime and see the young faces of crime, I realize im usually the one arguing for them, arguing about where they come from, argue about how they were probably raised and why they are where they are. I think even though ill never tell him, im 70% like my father in terms of his trade union business and drive. People may feel im a bitch and Ill own up to the label but i dont think im going to be detatched from subordinates  in my field of work. I love trinidad, although many people hate it and this bitch will do her best to fix her country

I am such a ruh-tahd

I did the unthinkable, i added him last night, and i woke up and saw he accepted. Loser territory here I come

AAAAAAAAAAAHHHHHH

K really, dilemma, y oh why did i have 2 see you again, and again and again in three weeks. And why oh why didnt u say screw her, im hanging wit my boys in ur bajanese language that i dont understnad at all (smile and nod smile and nod) and the hugs, meh and the kisses, cute altho i played it down. You kissed me in public@!!!!! Just last week I was talking about it. Bitch do u know what dat does to a girl??? And u didnt have ur fone and I was pissing drunk so our next meeting will once again be by chance. Meh! I hate thinking like a girl while i very well know i date like a guy. Cheers to tha freakin weekend!!!

Hangovers

I think if you were to give people hangovers BEFORE they take the sip of the alcoholic beverage, no1 wud drink, the number of drunk driving accidents would decline, and I would not be feeling as shitty as i do today. Jus sayin