Ok now that the year is nearing close i look forward not back. I am trying to develop a new outlook, not to stay mum but to shout it out loud, not to fall blindly but to step cautiously, but mostly, to protect my most fragile asset, my heart. Yeh i met R and sometimes when im with him i feel as giddy and childish as i did before. Yet i maintain control. I hold the reins! I steer my course! You're fun, you're cute and you're mind for the moment, lest i not forget this is a temporary arrangement. Nothing lasts forever. But ill let you hold my hand, and i'll hold yours and for the time being, promise to be faithful. Thats the least I can do!!