IM TIRED

Havent said this in a while but im really and truly, physically and mentally exhausted.

Abuse

Although I may not know about physical abuse, having never really been touched by a male aggressively, i realise now i may know a thing or two about emotional abuse. I am still reeling in its effects. Having been told that i'll only marry you if you do this, or women wear red lipstick and nailpolish, even today i sit and think how weak was I. How weak do all of us women get? That we let these men, assert control over us. I still cry. Cry that i took the cheating, cry that i accepted the pain cry because I STILL HURT. Yet still I hope to overcome it all. As Maya Angelou said, Yet still I rise. I hope to rise above this all. To have my heart for me and not Give it to anyone, but loan it to them, to help me carry it. Until then I have to pick up the pieces