I dont wanna cry

I wanna cry, i think. I said it, why am i so stupid, but you know what, he's so quiet i could bet my last dollar on the fact that even if he shared the sentiment, he woudnt have said it. Im hurt, and angry with myself. But i guess its the story of my life. So it brings to question, who says It first? Is it the man, because he is seen as the head, the leader of all his engagements? Or is it the woman, who is the fairer weaker sex, so in tune with her emotions? How does one decide one is ready to utter such a great step. How does one fair when ones affections are not returned. Most importantly, how do i step forward with my relationship which is apparently half love half just not love as yet. I give up. Vaya con dios, I hate relationships.