I am

Above all things really really weird!

Cant w8 to get home n play this

FML

To a lesser extent but still urgh!

Dear skin

Please cooperate, i know you're stressed, i know its exams, but do you see the way you're acting? You havent been this reckless since form 5. Remember, everything you do from here on out has consequences....specifically scars that arent pretty. Noone will want to marry you.


Signed
The human

And now I feel worse

I mean yeh i should have said im not really in the mood to go to mas so late, as in 6pm in town. But now im wondering if the bus waited on me and I hate feeling like I inconvenienced people. Ugh fml, ftw, 19 mored days

Sux

Yup 2day is the christening and bcuz im at school i miss it, i always miss everything. I really feel so alone and have always felt like an outsider with my fam n 2day its even worse. I really think i need to move out as soon as feasible

Im putting my foot down

They want me to start my practicum, 500 hour practicum btw the day after my exams end
1) I already told my godmum i'd spend the 2 weeks by her
2) Im tired
3) Im tired
4) Theyhaddabemadindeyfiretruckinghead

They're trying to convince me. telling me that the practicum supervisor lady has to vaca with her fam, 2 wks in june, 1 in august. I dont think im being unfair/spoilt. Am I?

I hate cramming!

You know you can do it, you're a sponge for information, not this type, but still its possible. Try to link it all, try to absorb it all, you have a week and a half come on! 

This may probably seem funny because of lack of sleep...

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=OYpwAtnywTk&feature=player_embedded

Advice

Today a friend announced that her mom insists you must love the man who loves you. Thats who you should be with....hmmm I'm realll picky

Did you know?

That when you buy plantain from the grocery, it isnt ripe....well i found that out this morning

I'm Exhausted

I go to class for 8 hours two days a week, the other 5 days i spend 6 hours each at least in the library, and i havent even got to studying for exams. Im tired and already feel defeated. Plus i have the witch tomorrow and have made so many pages to my paper you'll think im writing a novel. Kalms to sleep tonight

umm

so usu when i start a story with umm my bff s-j goes "oh lawd what u do" so to clarify i didnt do nething. BUTTTTTTTTTTT!! We bounced in2 one another n he asked for my number. Outside im like yeh wtvr, but inside its likeaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaahhhhhhhhhhh...


ok now back to normal ppl speak

Im kinda sorta blushing

Compatibility

She n i get along ok but im writing not aabout her byt about her relationship. Since i met her all she could talk about is her bf. He does this he does that. Sometimes it was sickening, sometimes it was adorable, sometimes it was enviable bcuz my own relationship at that time was mess. She answered the phone hey bb and u cud totally tell when he saw her he lit up. So he's for the sake of anonymity, a bricklayer and she's a msc student. And i had my doubts, eeeeeeeeeh really, wud it work? Convos revolved around the same issue. I stayed out of it because who am I to speak to someone about what makes them happy. Fastforward to this semester, they're done. Why? Because he doesnt understand how stressful it is to do both a msc and a relationship and has been demanding the same level of attention b4 she began the degree. So i hear my aunt in my head (who is single btw) saying u can only be fulfilled in a relationship if you and ur pathner are equally yolked. On the same playing field. Have the same level of ambitions. And i wonder if it is true. Could a ceo happily and etenrally marry a garbage man? Or is it just a matter of pride that gets in the way. *KANYE SHRUG*

My weakness

I think i sympathize wayyyyy too much with the disadvantaged, the underprivileged and the unhappy. Which is weird cuz im really mean. Mean in the sense of i have verbal vomit, i say whats on my mind waaaaaaaaaay more than I should and sometimes, most times i dont regret it cuz its the  truth. But when i look at crime and see the young faces of crime, I realize im usually the one arguing for them, arguing about where they come from, argue about how they were probably raised and why they are where they are. I think even though ill never tell him, im 70% like my father in terms of his trade union business and drive. People may feel im a bitch and Ill own up to the label but i dont think im going to be detatched from subordinates  in my field of work. I love trinidad, although many people hate it and this bitch will do her best to fix her country