An imagined life

Can i press fast forward on the life i was given, or swap lives with someone on tv? No really! I may sound ungrateful but if I had the choice id be raised by the cosbys with a big sister like DJ Tanner and a pet like lassie. A boyfriend like Finn from glee and hair like Serena Vanderwoodsen. Id go to Yale or Princeton or Stanford and be the envy of everyone I know. But then again, having everyone jealous of me wouldnt be too much fun would it? Im  rambling on but the point is, I have what i have; shitty parents, no boyfriend atm and I attend UWI but I resolved that im not going to feel sorry for myself anymore and work with what I have. I think...

Oh gorsh man, why every friggin ting in dis life hadda be so hard to obtain, love (stress), money (stress) independence (stress). I jus want things to come easily. I know, I know, the stress is part of the life lesson, the maturity, a means to an ends ( God i jus hope u kno that my ends include, a house in Mexico and a lifetime of happiness). I think d money isnt all important, i just want peace. I know thats a little much 2 ask, but really, all i wanna be happy!! Right now im at the phase of my perpetual cycle where I hate all men and wont put my trust in any of them. I wish someone would come along and just change my perspective, prove me wrong. Im jus making do with the cards im being dealt...